I wanted to take a bit of time out from the usual topics that this sex and erotic blog normally occupies.
I’ve done this before, don’t you know? Long-time and regular readers will be accustomed to this by now.
I tend to, and like, go off on tangents now and then. Possibly related to neuro-spicy tendencies (read more here).
If you’re new here, I’d recommend sampling some of my other, more philosophical work by clicking here. Can’t say it’s worth reading, but you can be the judge of that.
Back to the topic at hand.
I’ve got a number of reads on the go, and I thought you might be interested to hear all about it!
Or not, and I totally get that.
Feel free to close this page and mentally file under something like, “Never read this blog ever again”. I’d totally understand and agree with you, ha!
I do feel like I have to provide a bit of context to the books I’m currently reading. I did compose a whole monologue as background, but decided against it. It got way too personal. You nor I are ready for that right now.
Each book has a specific purpose in my life currently, some more clear than others. Some, I’m more forthcoming about.
So, what books am I currently reading? I tend to dip in and out of all 4, but here they are:
Small Talk: 10 ADHD lies and how to stop believing them by Rich and Rox Pink.
I bought this book to try and learn more about ADHD. Rich and Rox are a married couple. I found them somehow through Facebook reel scrolling.
Rox is the one with adult diagnosed ADHD (common for women my age), and they make comical, but insightful, videos about Rich living with someone with ADHD. They’ve written a few books now, but I bought ‘Small Talk’, their second one now.
Discovering their reels helped me to realise that I might actually have ADHD. No, not everyone is a ‘little bit ADHD or autistic’, so please don’t say that to me in response to this. I’m currently waiting for an assessment, but score highly for ADHD tests.
It affects everything about my life, without me even realising (before, that is). I’d berate myself for not doing basic things such as chores and keeping on top of them. I’d call myself a bloody stupid idiot for not being capable of the things everyone else could do. Why couldn’t I just follow a schedule, or a to-do list?
Playing with my hair until I pulled it out, and fidgeting, and doodling because it helped me concentrate.
Seeing people’s mouths move but not hearing the words, either making intense eye contact or making no eye contact, thinking about my eye contact and whether it was too much or too little, thinking which eye I should look at, thinking about EVERYTHING.
I thought that everyone thought like me. That everyone’s brain worked at a million miles an hour, all the time.
I’d found food in the microwave from two days ago that I’d been defrosting, and forgotten. I’d think, “what a waste of my bolognese”.
I’d start to clean the living room but then realise I’d forgotten to charge the vacuum battery. I’d go to put it on charge, but realise I’d put the charger somewhere ‘safe’ and have no idea where that was.
I’d move onto another chore like putting clothes away, only to realise I’d never washed them in the first place, or the clean washing had been in the washer for 3 days and I’d forgotten about it.
It goes on and on.
So, anyway. I bought this book to try and change some of the negative thoughts I had around myself. Negative thoughts about the way I was, that actually, I couldn’t even help.
The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Dr. van der Kolk.
Last year I got told I have PTSD, or complex-PTSD due to multiple traumas from my childhood. Today is not the day to go into this, but I wanted to give a bit of context. I also found out that people with PTSD and childhood trauma are more likely to be diagnosed with ADHD, too. Mostly because trauma changes your brain structure.
I bought this book following a recommendation in a group I’m in on Facebook.
On arrival, the paper it’s printed on is almost Bible book-thin. I knew then that this book was packed full, more than I was probably ready for.
This book is extremely hard-hitting at times, and a difficult read. But, I go back to it often, in my quest to learn more about trauma and how to heal from it.
Revision Guide Second Edition (GCSE 9-1).
I deleted the subject of the revision book, I don’t want to give too much away, do I?
But, I do like to brush up on my subject knowledge. I struggled with this in my last job, but now I have the space in my brain to do this.
I wanted You To Know by Laura Pearson – a fiction I have on my Kindle.
I don’t particularly like Kindles; I prefer a proper paper book in my hands. But, it was a gift from my mum, and she specifically recommended this book.
It centres around a twenty-one year old who has a baby and then discovers she has cancer. The character also shares my real name. I’m 64% of the way through, as my Kindle tells me. So, I don’t know how it ends. But it is starting to get a little bit tough to read.
There you go!
Did any of these books surprise you? Do you have any thoughts? Let me know in the comments.
Ta ra,
Lexi Rose
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